Updated: Jan 31, 2022
For a few months during this past Christmas season, I was in a weird creative space when it came to creating growth tools for my business. Normally, I have crazy (in a good way) ideas that I use to nurture the population who I serve. These ideas may come from a workshop I have attended, something I have read, connecting with nature, or just a random thought. What was weird about the past few months, was that I was no longer producing any ideas and I had not written a blog post for this space since September. Did I lose passion for my business and brand? Were all the sacrifices that I have made in the past year and a half in vain? After I dedicated time to self-reflection and prayer, I received my answer, which was… absolutely not! I still have a passion for education, my business, and brand. I still love working with and presenting to students. I absolutely love developing growth tools for my curriculum based on my many ideas. The few months of “weird space” I was in was a time that I needed to rest physically, emotionally, and mentally. Therefore, I concluded that this was my time of fallow. A time of fallow can be described as an undetermined amount of time when nothing or little is going on; a period of stillness if you will. During this time, one can feel as if their life is uninteresting, non-productive, or repetitive. If you pay attention to signs, something magical may be happening! Indulge me for a few moments, please. I want you to visualize yourself planting seeds for a bountiful garden. What do you see immediately after you plant the seeds and water them? Nothing but the wet or muddy ground. You do not see what is taking place underground. The unseen is a magical and necessary process. You just keep tending to the area because you understand that one day, you will have so many crops to eat and share (I hope you will share).
Stay with me. I promise I am going somewhere. I experienced mild anxiety because I did not recognize what was happening during my "business blank season." It was hard for me to understand why my inventive mind was not creating anything. The only ideas I was producing were activities to do with my husband, children, and mother. During this period, I managed to make the most of my situation. I enjoyed spending extra time with my family and engaging in purposeful self-care. Most importantly, I prayed and spent more one-on-one time with God. These were the seeds that needed to be planted. I finally understood that He needed me to “be still” while strengthening my family and spiritual bond, so I could gain clarity for my next move. I am a big believer that you must first conquer yourself before you can conquer anything else. If you think about it, how can you be blessed with a bigger paycheck, if you are not responsible with your smaller one? How can you manage a buy a house if you cannot pay your rent on time? How can you expect to be in this amazing relationship, but you have not taken the time to build a strong relationship with yourself? For me, I still had some unresolved things in my heart that God needed to work out. He sat my tail right down and sent a Rhema word through various outlets. Have I 100% conquered myself? No, but fortunately, I was able to receive the word and I am actively trying to apply it to many areas in my life. I understand what needs to be done and I am ready for the next phase of my life. So, beautiful souls, whenever you are feeling stuck or uncertain about any area in your life, slow down and self-reflect. If you believe, then say a word of prayer too. Encourage yourself; it may be your time of fallow and that, my friend, is a beautiful thing.